All this time how could you not know

Baby, you belong with me.


I don't want a fairytale ending right now, no, that is noooo where near what I want. But what I do want is to just, actually, to be done with him.
If I never saw him again in my life I would be so FREAKKKING happpy.

Honestly, he has never made me happy in my life.
That las time he was nice to me was when we were eleven, ELEVEN.
He's been a bitch to me since.
He is more than likely in love with a pothead.
coooooool.


But like I said I don't want a fairytale, I don't want to be romantically involved.
sometimes I wish I could have that cutesy relationship, but I know that would never happen with him.
I just, goshh, I would say thank god for summer, never have to see his annoying facee again.
BUTTT NOPE
He will be all up in my grill all summer, and I'll be even more head over heels with him.





stupppid.
I hate it.
I comment stalk him, because he doesn't tell me about his life.
I feel like a creep, cause I am.
I need TSWIFT, or DDLOVATO or GOMEZ.
We need liek seriousl disscussion time, than one of them (They have to fight first) can write a song about my situation.
If it's TSWIFT who wirtes it, she can include both of our names, than he will hear ito n the radio, then I will be over him at that time, and I can effin laugh in his face.




YEEE-UH
I just made myself feel better how about that.
peace & love.


p.s
I hope I didn't say I hatee him anywhere in here, cause I don't.

Life is unexpected.

That's why I didn't expect to end up here.
That's why I didn't expect to have my friends.
That's why I didn't expect to choose to live this way.
That's why I didn't expect to quit dance.
That's why I didn't expect not getting over him.





I didn't expect to live my life the way I do, not that it's that weird, but I still don't understand the scrutiny I get put under for it.
I will never be expected, and life won't either.

peace & love

Let's move reccomendations to sunday.

Since I can never seem to get to them on Saturdays.
Recap of the weekend:
Friday went to eat with my mother, my sister & emily. Got Keith Urbans entire CD, Then went out to Baskin Robins with India & Emily.
Saturday : Laid in the sun all day with Emily, due to my light skin, I did not get tan, AT ALL.
Today :Went to the Cars & Guitars exhibit at the Henry Ford Museum. They had Nick, Joe & Kevin's outfits from Camp Rock, plus their guitars. IT made me real proud since they were the only current band in a collection of KISS, Kid Rock, Janice Joplin, Jimi Hendrix, ALice Cooper,Rick Neilson, BB King, Elvis Pressley, ZZ Top, and The Who. Plus I got this awesome vintage Elvis Pressley shirt thAT I'M STOKED to wear. Then we went to Old Navy, where I bought nothing. & Got a smoothie from Panera.
Tomorrow: Going to downtown Ann Arbor to do some emorial day shopping at urban outfitters and american apparel, thenn FROYO!


Basically that's it. SO far Memorial Day weekend had been fun. Emily, Shelby & I have been planning for the summer, and decided some very funny things (:


My SUNDAY recommendation :
PARANOID THE MUSIC VIDEO (:

Confession number three!

Confession number 3: He still makes me totally uncomfortable with who I am. I hate that feeling.



This week has been normal, actually take that back. Five very odd things happened.
1. On monday, Emily & I got sprayed with water from some dumb kid walking down the hallway
2. Someone broke into my locker and put a white flowerin my locker. I don't know whyy.
3. I went to a dance off with the mentally disabled dance off, the prophits went to Make A Wish, it was fun!
4. I got lemon juice in my eye...
5. I saw a boy I went to school with get hit by a car, I will be praying for him.



peace & love

I just wanted to say..

FOURTEEN DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT FOR ME!
Then the parties start.


JONAS WORLD TOUR
WARPED TOUR
FEARLESS TOUR




dayummmmmm!

101 things that ...

As you may know, I like making lists, I made a 101 things that make me happy, and wrote out my 101 things I want to accomplish in 2009 which I haven't posted and I think I'm waiting to. But right now I want to make a 101 people that I love.(in no order)
1. God
2. Jesus Christ
3. My Mom
4. My Dad
5. Beth (for being my sister)
6. Emily (for being there for me for SEVEN years)
7. Shelby (for being my bestfriend)
8. Jenny (for being my soulll sister)
9. Nick Jonas (for paving my life)
10. Joe Jonas (for paving my life)
11. Kevin Jonas (for paving my life)
12. India (for being a friend)
13. Naomi (for biology)
14. Kelsey (my french buddy)
15. Selena Gomez( for being the cooolest)
16. Auntie Anne (for being the best godmother in the whole world!)
17. Uncle don (for having the best laugh in the world)
18. Demi Lovato (for being amazing)
19. Steve May (for calling me Sheda Rose to this day)
20. Cousin Delaina (for being my childhood bestfriend)
21. Cousin Kendall(for being hilarious)
22. Dorris (she used to give me candy everytime I went to my moms work)
23.Keria Knightly (my inspiration in life)
24. Cousin John (for giving the best hugs)
25. My mothers mother who I never met, but I hear that she would have loved me tremendously
26. Both of my dads arents, who I also never met, but sound like the coolest old people
27. Anyone out of the bible (for inspirong me)
28. Sarah S. (for being my savior in 4th & 6thhour)
29. Caitlyn M. (aka the craziest girl ever.)
30. Carolyn (Emily's lil sis)
31. John (Emily's dad)
32. Kristen (emily's mom)
33. Uncle Danny, he gives me a goood laugh!
34. Stephanie (RIP I love & miss you soooooo much)
35. Missy (my dog, no shes not a person per say, but I love her)
36. Brooke (my sisters bestfriend)
37. Dallas (I Haven't seen her in so long, but I miss her!)
38. Jess origliasso (for having awesome style)
39. Lis origliasso (For touching my hand at a concert)
40. Micheal Bruno (for having a soothing voice)
41. Jay Rosen (for laughing at shelby & I)
42. Andrew Lee (for being sooo nice)
44. Alex Noyes ( for pointing and smiling at me, at concerts)
45. Aunt Cindy (although she isn't the best aunt, I gotta love her)
46. Mia & MAndy (Shelby's lil sisters)
47. Kim & her family(for having a toilet as a flowerpot)
48. Melissa & her family (for eating meatball subs with me at church)
49. Diane (my old babysiter.)
50. Miley Cyrus (for singing the climb)
51. Daren Kagasoff (thank you for being soooo good to look at)
52. Brian Haupt (He always listens to everything I have to say.)
53. Cj Baran (for being incredibly goood looking!)
54. Steve Scarola (for being so nice to me in the m&gs)
55. Derek Ries (for having greattt hair)
56. Nick Deturris(for being very funny at acoustic shows)
57. Micheal (please come home, we all miss you)
58. Taylor Swift *for having wonderful music)
59. Backstreet boys (you entertained me in my young days)
60. Emily (beths friend)
61. Phil Bensen (for his beautiful voice)
62. Waldon Reed (for being the best guitar teacher out there.)
63. Dottie (for talking to me with her cat on the front proch)
64. Danny (For pretending to be paparazzi/ being a great neighbor)
65. Jackie (for being my moms bff)
66. Aunt Laura (Hilarious)
67. Mr. Tracy (for being relateble, and being the teacher I can talk too)
68. Lindsey Humpert (You were the most hardcore woman ever, but you made me an amazing dancer)
69. Brianna (For I will never be close to you again, but for the times you were, you made me complete.)
70. John Mayer (for having inspiring music)
71. Mamma & Papa Jonas (for having amazing sons)
72. Big Rob (for being the best part of JB (;)
73. Miss Sabbagh (for being the only math teacher that has ever made me do well. Also for joking and taling with me)
74. Miss Hillman (for being the funniest and most independent woman I know)
75. Jenny's parents (for being the coolest fillipinos I know)
76. Miss Liacono (for giving me emily and shelby sooooo much)
77. Grnadpa (I may not get along with you, but you are family)
78. Katy Perry (For being totally herself, and inspiring me to be myself)
79. Uncles Danny's new family aka the country kids (for being incredibly funny, and fitting in with the family from the get go!)
80. Anna Wintour (For being brilliant)
81. Greg Garbowski (For being the coolest basist ever)
82. JT (For being the coolest period.)
83. Jack Lawless (for being so cutee !)
84. Ryan Liestman (For wearing a Red Wings jersey)
85. Miss Ssherrie (for making checceti so hilarious, and for being so gullible!)
86. Mrs. Oddino (For our one on one time at BLBC, she is such an amazing woman.)
87. Mr. Santi (For being the first teacher to make me laugh)
88. CJ (for being the most beastly looking, gentle girl I know)
89. Mr. Fryer (for calling me Mrs.Wrong for a year straight)
90. Aaron Vegas (for being hilarious everytime I see you)
91. All of the girls at the Ritz Carlton (for having so much fun that night!)
92. Shelby L. (For believing in me at dance)
93. Joey Page (for rubbing my back when you met me, and it was like -90000 degrees!)
94. Ellen Degenres (for making me laugh!)
95. Uncle Carl (For being the craziest)
96. Mary Y. (for still making me laugh to this day)
97. Emilys cats (again not people but stilll)
98. City & Colour (For your music always being there)
99. Aunt Bev (For being the nicest little ol aunt!)
100. Dean (for being so welcoming.)
101. Everyone reading this!

Just got back from a mini vacation...

Here are some pictures :


My favorite lighthouse in the worllld! Haha, too bad it was nasty out that night. We got a biggg rain after that :(

Excuse my bad hair, i promise it was not my fault. Anyways, we found that someone tore this off of the actual sign, plus it was funny because we were bringing our dog on the beach.

My dads a lurker. Anyways, the beach was gorgeous even on the nasty night!

awkwardddd!

I had found the coolest old school headphones, plus the beach wasss just perfect!

Beth & Brooke on the beach.


That is my dream house, seriously, I will buy it one day (:

Once again, awkward, but we were trying to do action shots, and well.....

My beautiful and dirtyyy puppy on the beach.


WEll thats all the good pictures.
But while I was on the beach, just roaming I was getting to thinking. You know how people always say "back to reality", well that just doesn't make sense to me. Why does reality have to be working all the time, and being stressed out? To me reality is life, and life is everything. Reality just doesn't mean fighting, crying, screaming, working hard, getting let down, and wanting to leave. That is the down side to living but if you look at the plus side, it makes it worth it. I think we get caught up in this idea of reality be the bad because of what we see on tv, on reality tv. In reality tv, you see fighting and screaming, and crying the whole season, but really, at the end, doesn't someone always end up happy? I think in reality, and in life, there is always a rainbow at the end, and laughs, smiles, beautiful, perfection, and love along the way. Reality doesn't have to be bad, if you choose the way you live it.
peace & love.

my biggest fan:

my mother.
Mothers day was yesterday, and I really meant to post this then, but I was horribly sick so I stayed away from my computer.
Anyways, my mothers is my best friend, my support system, my caretaker, my chief birthing officer, and my life. She has paid for everything, for all the years of dance, for my crazy obsession with clothes, to my new concert obsessions. She has supported every decision I have made from deciding to get a purity rings, to quitting dance, to my jonas obsession. She listens to my music, and sings with me in the car. When she can tell I'm not in a good mood, she will simply ask "do you want to go shopping tonight" and we will drive to a far away mall, while blasting music in the car. When I'm sick, she comes to me and asks me a billion times if I am alright, or if I'm feeling better.
Sometimes, she annoys me, and sometimes we fight, but she has always protected me. She drives me out of state for crazy things, and never does she complain. She has taught me so many things, how to treat people, how to handle situations, to be thankful for everything ,and to love the best I can.
But more than anything, I love my mom, because she has loved me unconditionally, and as I do her.



recommenadation:
Paranoid - Jonas Brothers


peace & love

The sheets are stained with memories of your soft kiss.

Not really, but I love Like Knives - City And Colour
SO I'm sick ,like not terribly, I'm not going to act like the worlds ending, and secretly I'm kinda of enjoying it just because, I lost my voice. To someone normal, this wouldn't be cool or good at all, ad really it isn't, but I have NEVER lost my voice before, so this is something new for me. Shelby told me today that I sound like a rapist right now, hahaha.
Anyways the worst part is that I started choking in the middle guitar lessons. For some odd reason, every time I get into a room where it's quiet and with one other person, I always choke. Maybe it's my bodies way of making things EVEN more awkward. But see when I start to choke not only am I coughing obnoxiously but I'm tearing up, and my nose is running as well. Then as I was walking out the door and into the parking lot (which is conviently located right off the main road) I puke. Yes, i puked in the middle of prking lot at my guitar center.



peace & love
Sarah

Confession numero un & deux

#1: I sincerely think Ian Crawford from The Cab is the cutest ever. I have like a HUGMONGUS crush on him.
#2: I think I might start a tshirt line, and I'm really thinking about this, but it is something I would LOVEEEE to do.

Why can't i remember for once?

Let's just pretend it's saturday!
Hahahah!
My new headline is cool, but I'm still trying to fix it, and maybe get a new one. Also, JONAS last night, it was really good. I was really super surprised that it made me laugh, but maybe I laughed just because it's them, but whatev's!
At this ppoint life's pretty solid. But I'm just basically waiting for the summer, I'm really upset about not being able to go to a Demi concert or The Veronicas, stupid!
But I'm honestly am going to go to Forever The Sickest Kids, so there will most likely be coverage from that.


Recommendation:

On whole, Forever The Sickest Kids album "Underdog Alma Mater.
Great album, definately worthy of checking out. Plus they seem like awesome guys :D
peace & love
Sarah